Sunday, 20 December 2015

2015: A Wish Granted, But A Dream Lost.

A year ago, I posted on Facebook that I had one primary goal in 2015, which frankly has been my yearly goal since 1997. I repeated my oft quoted remark by the protagonist of the television show, Girls, Hannah Horvath:

I just want someone, who wants to hang out all the time, and thinks I’m the best person in the world, and wants to have sex with only me.

It may have come eighteen years too late, but I finally found someone who fits that deceptively difficult criteria. I met FRG in May, and ever since she has complemented my life, rather than overpowered it. The throughline of 2015 was my chance meeting with FRG, and our developing relationship. Everything since has featured her. She has now moved in with me, and we are planning trips to Bluesfest in March, and to Adelaide in July.

Unfortunately 2015, was also a year of profound disappointment. As one dream came true, another died as I said goodbye to my PhD, and resolved to downgrade it to a Masters instead. Tears were shed, and a profound anger emerged that will never really dissipate. Regardless, when I finally finish the thesis next year, I will not be returning to study again. I need to do something different.

I have had many opportunities to do this. In January I was the lead writer for The Conversation's coverage of the 2015 Queensland Election, which received nearly 200,000 unique viewers to my articles. From this came my first ever television appearance as a political commentator. It also led to a job with Griffith University as I became a weekly contributor to its political blog The Machinery of Government.

I continue to live in the best supported accommodation in Australia with help from Youngcare and Wesley Mission Brisbane. This has allowed me to have an incredibly fulfilling life. I went to the Gabba for the first day of the First Cricket Test, saw my beloved Port Adelaide play in Melbourne, the Gold Coast and in Brisbane, attended four concerts, four films at the British Film Festival, productions of Wicked and Anything Goes, along with going to the movies at least once a fortnight on average. Further, I took a week long holiday on the Gold Coast in September, which was organised by WMB where I read six of my forty books of the year. I am incredibly fortunate to have these opportunities.

2015 may not have been as good as the proceeding two because of the disappointment with my thesis, but perhaps it has been the most crucial. For the first time I am beginning to make long term plans in my personal life. 2016 is already shaping up as a significant year of change. It will be due to the most important revelation of this year.

I am not alone anymore, and I no longer have to wish for that loneliness to disappear.

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